just resting

Last night Laura's breathing and apnea really changed. Around midnight to 130 am she would pause 30-40 seconds between breaths. She was still and not moving and then take a big breath after what seemed like forever in the darkness of night. Then a bit past 130 she made a huge grown and started to twitch and shake (which is pretty normal for her now) and started breathing shallowly but regularly. 

Then at about 5:30 am she was as awake and aware as she has been in a while. Her eyes were open and I asked if she was warm enough (she just had a flannel sheet on) and she said yes. I asked her if she was in pain and she said I don't know. Then I told her it was ok to let go and move on to the next adventure and she said I can't. She is so fierce and strong. Oh my.  I also said I love you and she said I know.