I haven't been watching any tv either besides Timbers soccer games. I will catch a baseball game during the playoffs. Im sure I'll check out some Patriots at some point as well. I go to bed between 9-10 but I am able to sleep again. Lucky me. I wake up super early but that's fine with me. Ani isn't sleeping much.
Ani and I went to a little brew fest Friday night and it was wicked fun. I danced like a mad man and she talked to all kinds of my friends. She even said,"Dad you have some really fun friends. Where have you been hiding them." Haha. Ya Ani I do have fun friends. How strange huh?!
Louis got the crap beat out of him by a raccoon a week ago. I heard him barking and then he was screaming and yelping. I ran outside in the pitch dark and kicked the raccoon off him and he ran towards the house and the darn raccoon jumped him again and I had to kick it off him a second time! I did take him to the vet the next day and while his rabies shot was up to date, they gave him a second one and antibiotics. He had a couple dozen puncture wounds on his butt and back legs. Poor boy. The night he get jumped, he came inside and trembled on Ani's lap for a long time.
Both kids have been sick but are both on the mend. Ani got signed up for her last upper division geology class. Its an online class through UO and she will graduate with her degree in December as long as she passes! Its a geologic hazards class which is actually fun stuff as long as you like earthquakes, tsunamis, volcanoes, land slides and such. So cool!
I guess this work week has been harder than others. I had to pull my car over cause I was crying so hard after a meeting on Monday. I ended up going directly to the gym at Clatsop CC and took the rest of the afternoon off. It's just a bit lonely and sad around this corner of the world.
I have started doing the death paper work- getting Laura's name off stuff. It's stupid. Social Security Administration not only wants an original death certificate, but an original birth certificate and an original marriage licence! So Stupid. Laura's Mom, Barbara, was so kind and went to the City of Springfield MA and got a new Birth Certificate for me! I doing this, I unearthed passports of Laura and I when we were 23 and 22 respectively. Below is a photo of them:
Louis right after the mean raccoon mugged him and bite up his hind legs and butt. |
I sometimes think about Snydley being dead and just can't fully grasp it. I think about our youth which feels closer than death. Those passport pictures of yours....that's my friend. There she is (and there you are too) so young, vibrant, full of life and now we are older and she is gone and yet the sun comes up and we go to work and things keep happening, but she's on to her next adventure without us. .......nothing profound here, just sadness and a pit in my stomach. I think about song lyrics and her music. I remember she'd tip her head...sometimes touch my chin even, when she wanted to be sure I was paying attention. "Rulers make bad lovers, better put your kingdom up for sale" (Gold Dust Woman)....she loved those lyrics. Fuck it. Just fuck it.
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