Laura update- kinda

I am hopeful.  The cancer lump on Laura’s neck that started this whole thang is smaller.  Last night, while watching either The Wire or USA Build up to the World Cup special, Laura said something like, I think this lump is smaller.  I rooted around in her neck and with my vast medical background confirmed it is definitely smaller.  I am really excited that the chemo cocktail is attacking and killing and making life bad for the cancer within.

However, as I was trying to fall asleep last night, I could not help but thing of the roller coaster of medical information.  Hope, despair, good news bad news.  My thoughts drifted to Madeline, Todd, Jim and years back my Dad’s “friend” Woody who died of AIDS 6 months before my Dad.  There are good positive scans, and then bad ones.  There is hope and then none.  But this mirrors life and the ups and downs of everyday existents.  We are just magnified somehow now.

That being said, the sun of a new day, the birds at the feeder, the eagle flying low over our house and random teenage girl sleeping in a sleeping bag on our KITCHEN floor (not even on the couch 20 feet away) all make me hopeful and glad.  While we are still 8-10 weeks away from getting new scans, I believe and feel the chemo is working and the stupid cancer is retreating into the depths of Mordor where it came from.  Size the day.  One day at a time and live and love like there is no tomorrow.  All Hallmark Card liners, but somehow appropriate.

Also, I am taking Ani and two of her long time- 6^th grade- soccer teammates to the Timbers Game tonight!  Breathe and feel the sunshine on your face.

Wow this is a bit over the top corny…